You never listen

You always come up with your own version of what has upset me.  Even when I tell you what it is, you make up your own shit.  Calling me names and bringing up my family.  Of course, I am not happy.  Especially, I am not allowed to do the same.  I am supposed to just forget everything you have done and said.  It makes life worthless, since I am expected to do things but actually you appreciate none of it.

You ask me, what do I think, or if you can do this or that, but I am not actually allowed to say what I really think.  I wish you would either consider my opinion or not ask me if your not going to care much for it.  You can’t make me be happy with something when I am not.

You insist on arguing, going through the same things over and over, sometimes we will just disagree.

I am living an empty life with someone who has no regard for my feelings, all is good as long as I agree with everything. You want me to be like a puppet that smiles and agrees to everything you do.  I wish I was like that.  I wish I had less to say.


Running out of patience – my fault

I’m trying hard not to be snappy, to say yes, to show excitement and agree with what is said.  I wish I had more patience, I wish I could pretend to be happy, and pretend to agree.  But I don’t always agree.

Sometimes the demands seem so irrational, it seems to be one thing after another.  I am sorry for saying no, I am sorry for showing my frustration, I am sorry I cringe when you make a suggestion.  “What now?” is so clear on my expression.  I get annoyed by these things.  I get annoyed having to do the same things over and over.  I get annoyed that you want me to do little things your capable of, especially when I am already busy doing a task you have asked me to.

I really do wish I had more patience…

It’s harder when it’s that time of the month.  I know it makes me moody, but believe it or not, I don’t know how to control it.  It’s a feeling I can’t get rid of.

Is there no way you can allow me to do that or just overlook it :S

————————————I’m sorry I am snappy and negative.  I know I can be hurtful at times.